IVF2 was another fail, zero fertilisation yet again. I was gutted, really felt like giving up.
Egg collection this time round was certainly more painful than the first. I woke up towards the end of it and I could feel definite stabbing pains on my left side ouchie. I was also very sore after it and the next day which I never had first time round. When embryologist came to see us before we left and told us only 1 of my 5 eggs was suitable for ICSI I knew then it wasn't going to work. She told me to call them the next day around 10am for fert report but if it wasn't great news they would call me. So the next morning I sat there waiting on the phone call.. and at 9.40 I got it. I didn't even cry, I knew it was coming. My eggs just weren't mature enough was the explanation I got.
After this came Mother's Day... I thought I would be fine. I had arranged to go visit my sister with some flowers for our Mum, her ashes are at her home still. But the tears started when I was getting ready as all I could think about was Mum and my Mother In Law who we also lost last year. Along with 2 failed IVF attempts it has made me realise just what we have been through in 2012 and its really taken it out of me. I need a break.
I received an appointment card yesterday for our review appointment, I think anyway no letter just a pink card with an appointment date on it, its for 24th May! Don't really feel like going to it but I suppose to hear what they have to say will be useful. I have already contacted another clinic and booked in to go see them also at end of May. The consultant there recommended I take DHEA for 3 months so I started that just over 2 weeks ago. We have also booked a little holiday to Majorca in June and hope to start my next cycle after that. So for now we are taking a break and looking forward to our next cycle with a new clinic.
