I got up just after 8 today, keen to call the clinic to find out about my eggs. I couldnt call until after 9.30 and also wanted Hubby to be there. He got up at 9.30 so we called soon after. After I confirmed my date of birth the embryologist said "I dont have very good new for you" my heart sank. She told me none of my 4 eggs had fertilised. I had 3 mature eggs and 1 that wasnt quite mature enough but the sperm was great she said it was trying to fertilise and she really had no reasons as to why it hadnt happened. I was gutted. I was shaking my head to kind of let hubby know and he was asking what is she saying. I just started to cry. She asked if I wanted to speak to a nurse or take a few minutes and call back. I said I would call back as I was in no state to speak to anyone. My poor hubby, it took me a few minutes before I could explain to him.
Its so unfair, why me, why cant one thing just go right.. that's what I kept thinking. Took me about an hour before I could call back and speak to a nurse and when I did she was lovely, as usual, told me she was heading back to The Royal that afternoon and she would take my notes back and pass them to medical team for them to go over everything and see what went wrong etc. I will get a letter in the post for my review appointment where they will go over things. I asked if they would do ICSI next time and she thought that would probably happen.
Its my 35th birthday tomorrow so I think I deserve a large glass of wine or two :)
All my twitter friends and real life friends have been amazing and so supportive, I love you all.
14/11/2012
13/11/2012
Egg Collection 13.11.12
I woke up at 5.15am this morning I actually slept pretty well, thought I would be awake all night. I just got up and had my shower then got hubby up. We left at about 6.30am as we were travelling to a different clinic as our clinic has some problem with their lab and its closed so we were heading to The Nuffield in Glasgow and had no clue where it was. We found it ok after going round in circles in the wrong street a few times, its basically a big fancy house in a residential street.
We checked in at reception at about 7.15 and a lovely man in a waistcoat showed us to our room, yes we had our own private room with a bathroom and tv woohoo (don't get that on the NHS) We sat in there for about half an hour until a nurse came to see us. She went over some medical details with us and took my blood pressure and said I could get changed into my lovely gown. We were second on the list so hopefully not too long to wait. I was getting very nervous, just waiting but was glad we had a room to ourselves to wait in. Next the anaesthetist came in and went over more medical stuff and explained what would be happening, he was lovely. The doctor that was doing the egg collection was from the Royal (our own clinic) and he came in and went over the procedure and any complications that can arise etc. There were also nurses from the Royal there too and they also seemed to be loving the fancy surrounding and thought they should keep working there forever :)
We were then asked to move room, we were put in room 3 but they like us to be in the room number to match when we are going to theatre and since I was going second we had to swap rooms with the couple in room 2. They were pretty much the same - still lovely. It wasnt long before they came for me, just before 9am, Hubby and I said our goodbye's and I went to theatre and he went to do his very important part :) I had to confirm my name and date of birth to two women through a wee hatch who were obviously in the lab and then I got to lie down. I was still pretty nervous but all the nurses were lovely and then the anaesthetist, Dr Miller (yay I remembered one name) came in. He got started putting the cannula into my hand and started asking me about my job. I remember getting my legs strapped into the stirrups, lovely, then feeling the anaesthetic going in and my arm feeling tingly then my face and a nurse saying enjoy your sleep and that was that.
I woke up back in my room with hubby at my side. I heard hubby asking the nurse "so we got 4 eggs" and I asked about my right ovary, they did check but there were no eggs there. After the nurse left I asked hubby how did you know we had 4 eggs and apparently I had asked her already but I do not remember haha. I felt fine just a little crampy and sleepy. They left us for a while then a Nurse came back in to check on us and bring me some water and to say there was a lunch menu and she was sure we both got to choose something. I just had a plain cheese sandwich and some tea, hubby got scrambled eggs and smoked salmon muffins, fancy! After a while I got up to go to the toilet and I felt fine, we watched a bit of telly until a nurse came back to say we had to get more blood taken as there was one blood test that The Nuffield wanted done that hadnt been done at The Royal, Hubby was not happy about this at all, he hates needles, bless. I was allowed to get dressed then though and we were told the embryologist would come and go over things before we could go. The embryologist from The Nuffield and The Royal came in and after a little mix up with files (they had the file of the woman who was in the room earlier) she went over what had happened. So we have 4 eggs and she was happy with that and told us they would mix hubby's sample with them that afternoon and I was to call them in the morning (Wednesday) just after 9.30am to see how they were getting on. She said they usually have a 60% fertilisation rate so really praying for 1 or 2 to fertilise. If only 1 or 2 do they will probably get put back on Thursday but if more then they will leave to Friday to pick the best 1 or 2 to go back. She did ask us about how many we want back but I was told at previous appointments that only 1 would go back and they would do 2 if they were not great quality. She said we will wait and see how they fertilise and take it from there. The only thing I am worried about with 2 is if they both do implant and I go on to have twins, how the hell will I afford it! So I guess I will see what they say in the morning and take it from there, we may only get 1 fertilised or we may get none. I need to be prepared for all outcomes but im trying to stay positive.
So far this afternoon I have layed on the couch and watched some telly, had a nap, hubby made dinner and I have my hot water bottle as still a bit sore and just going to have a nice relaxing evening.
We checked in at reception at about 7.15 and a lovely man in a waistcoat showed us to our room, yes we had our own private room with a bathroom and tv woohoo (don't get that on the NHS) We sat in there for about half an hour until a nurse came to see us. She went over some medical details with us and took my blood pressure and said I could get changed into my lovely gown. We were second on the list so hopefully not too long to wait. I was getting very nervous, just waiting but was glad we had a room to ourselves to wait in. Next the anaesthetist came in and went over more medical stuff and explained what would be happening, he was lovely. The doctor that was doing the egg collection was from the Royal (our own clinic) and he came in and went over the procedure and any complications that can arise etc. There were also nurses from the Royal there too and they also seemed to be loving the fancy surrounding and thought they should keep working there forever :)
We were then asked to move room, we were put in room 3 but they like us to be in the room number to match when we are going to theatre and since I was going second we had to swap rooms with the couple in room 2. They were pretty much the same - still lovely. It wasnt long before they came for me, just before 9am, Hubby and I said our goodbye's and I went to theatre and he went to do his very important part :) I had to confirm my name and date of birth to two women through a wee hatch who were obviously in the lab and then I got to lie down. I was still pretty nervous but all the nurses were lovely and then the anaesthetist, Dr Miller (yay I remembered one name) came in. He got started putting the cannula into my hand and started asking me about my job. I remember getting my legs strapped into the stirrups, lovely, then feeling the anaesthetic going in and my arm feeling tingly then my face and a nurse saying enjoy your sleep and that was that.
I woke up back in my room with hubby at my side. I heard hubby asking the nurse "so we got 4 eggs" and I asked about my right ovary, they did check but there were no eggs there. After the nurse left I asked hubby how did you know we had 4 eggs and apparently I had asked her already but I do not remember haha. I felt fine just a little crampy and sleepy. They left us for a while then a Nurse came back in to check on us and bring me some water and to say there was a lunch menu and she was sure we both got to choose something. I just had a plain cheese sandwich and some tea, hubby got scrambled eggs and smoked salmon muffins, fancy! After a while I got up to go to the toilet and I felt fine, we watched a bit of telly until a nurse came back to say we had to get more blood taken as there was one blood test that The Nuffield wanted done that hadnt been done at The Royal, Hubby was not happy about this at all, he hates needles, bless. I was allowed to get dressed then though and we were told the embryologist would come and go over things before we could go. The embryologist from The Nuffield and The Royal came in and after a little mix up with files (they had the file of the woman who was in the room earlier) she went over what had happened. So we have 4 eggs and she was happy with that and told us they would mix hubby's sample with them that afternoon and I was to call them in the morning (Wednesday) just after 9.30am to see how they were getting on. She said they usually have a 60% fertilisation rate so really praying for 1 or 2 to fertilise. If only 1 or 2 do they will probably get put back on Thursday but if more then they will leave to Friday to pick the best 1 or 2 to go back. She did ask us about how many we want back but I was told at previous appointments that only 1 would go back and they would do 2 if they were not great quality. She said we will wait and see how they fertilise and take it from there. The only thing I am worried about with 2 is if they both do implant and I go on to have twins, how the hell will I afford it! So I guess I will see what they say in the morning and take it from there, we may only get 1 fertilised or we may get none. I need to be prepared for all outcomes but im trying to stay positive.
So far this afternoon I have layed on the couch and watched some telly, had a nap, hubby made dinner and I have my hot water bottle as still a bit sore and just going to have a nice relaxing evening.
09/11/2012
Are my follies ready?
After 9 days of Gonal F and a lovely bruise on my left side of belly (excuse the chubbiness)
I was back at the clinic today to check on my follies and see if I was ready for Egg Collection. The waiting room was so busy today people were standing out in the corridor!
I was taken on time though and off I went for my scan - Lining was nice and thick but I cant remember what measurement and I have 4 Follicles on my left ovary a 17, 15 and 2 11's. She struggled to find my right ovary but when she did there was nothing to see :( I couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed but I'm sure the 4 follies I have will be just fine :) The nurse told me I would get blood taken and she would call me later with results to see if all is ok to go ahead with egg collection next week.
So a different nurse took more blood and gave me more Gonal F to last me over the weekend, she also gave my my trigger shot and progesterone pessaries. The clinic I go to, Glasgow Royal Infirmary, has a problem with their lab at the moment so egg collection and transfer will take place at another hospital The Nuffield, its in the same town so not too much of a difference, its a private hospital so kinda hoping its very plush haha. I had to make an appointment back to GRI on Monday for another scan in case my blood results weren't great and egg collection wouldn't take place just yet but thankfully I got a call this afternoon and I'm good to go woohoo. So I take gonal f on Saturday & Sunday and carry on with my nasal spray last snuff being Sunday, take my booster shot on Sunday at 7.00pm and egg collection is Tuesday at 7.30am - very early but I'm sure I wont sleep on Monday night anyway.
Will keep you posted, fingers crossed there are some great eggs in there.
I was back at the clinic today to check on my follies and see if I was ready for Egg Collection. The waiting room was so busy today people were standing out in the corridor!
I was taken on time though and off I went for my scan - Lining was nice and thick but I cant remember what measurement and I have 4 Follicles on my left ovary a 17, 15 and 2 11's. She struggled to find my right ovary but when she did there was nothing to see :( I couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed but I'm sure the 4 follies I have will be just fine :) The nurse told me I would get blood taken and she would call me later with results to see if all is ok to go ahead with egg collection next week.
So a different nurse took more blood and gave me more Gonal F to last me over the weekend, she also gave my my trigger shot and progesterone pessaries. The clinic I go to, Glasgow Royal Infirmary, has a problem with their lab at the moment so egg collection and transfer will take place at another hospital The Nuffield, its in the same town so not too much of a difference, its a private hospital so kinda hoping its very plush haha. I had to make an appointment back to GRI on Monday for another scan in case my blood results weren't great and egg collection wouldn't take place just yet but thankfully I got a call this afternoon and I'm good to go woohoo. So I take gonal f on Saturday & Sunday and carry on with my nasal spray last snuff being Sunday, take my booster shot on Sunday at 7.00pm and egg collection is Tuesday at 7.30am - very early but I'm sure I wont sleep on Monday night anyway.
Will keep you posted, fingers crossed there are some great eggs in there.
04/11/2012
Scan & Bloods round 2, 01/11/12
Last Thursday I was back at the clinic and this time I was early. The waiting room was pretty full including a man eating a cereal bar very loudly, everyone was looking at him, really hate that smacking sound lol anyway it passed some time being disgusted by that and watching some home improvement show on the tv.
I was taken for a scan and this time everything looked good to go, lining was thin woohoo.
I then went back to waiting room, this time it was empty and only had to wait a few minutes until a Nurse called for me again. She took more bloods just to be sure as my last bloods were a bit high but this was probably due to my lining still being too thick. She said if there was any issues they would call me. She then gave me all my injections I would need and my nasal spray. She went over how to use the pen and my dose, she spoke very very fast and I kinda felt like I wasnt taking anything in, was going way over my head. She did the first injection for me there so I felt a bit more comfortable about using the pen. I had to do another one that evening of 300 IU and 2 the following day then onto 375 IU from Saturday. I start my nasal spray on Sunday 4 times a day; 7am, 12 noon, 6pm & 11pm.. jeez will need to set reminders for that. I have to carry on doing this until they tell me to stop.
I go back on Friday 9th November for scan to check on my follies and if things are looking good I will be back on Monday 12th for theatre for egg collection - eeek. If not I will get more drugs home and back on Monday for another scan. I am off work that week so glad it will be happening when I dont need to stress about work.
So far I have done 6 injections - belly is looking a little red and I think there may be a bruise starting soon.
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