Private Cycle IVF/ICSI

I am back with an update; my next round of IVF will be a lot sooner than March 2013 woohoo! After calling my clinic and saying we would pay for a cycle as I couldn't wait until March for my review appointment, they have confirmed I can go ahead and pay and I can start on my next period (which should be here within a week). All we need to do is pay upfront, still waiting on the bill coming through though, and I call when AF comes and get booked in for my prostap on day 21. I think day 21 will be the end of first week in January so hoping I will be cycle buddies with the lovely Hopeandpray2011 who will be starting her 3rd attempt in January too and we go to the same clinic, just think we could be be enjoying that private room with tv and lunch at the Nuffield around the same time :)

This time around we are doing ICSI due to the zero fertilisation last time. I am praying this will work and we will at least get 1 good fertilised egg. I am also hoping my right ovary behaves and actually produces some eggs this time as last time only my left worked. I was already on highest dose of Gonal F so dont think my drugs will change, think the only change will be ICSI. Looks like I wont get a review appointment either maybe they will go over things at my prostap appointment, not sure.

So it back to waiting for AF to come, then counting down the days to Prostap.

I really need this time to work, cant even bear to think how I will feel if it fails, just need to try and stay positive.

When is my review appointment?

Just a quite update....So after waiting (im)patiently for 2 weeks after the failed fertilisation I called the clinic last Tuesday to check when my review appointment was going to be. When I finally got to speak to someone they didn't have a note of my appointment and went to find my notes and said they would call me back. They didn't so I  called them back the following day to be told I hadn't been reviewed yet and to call back on Friday as they were reviewing my notes then. So at just after 12 on Friday I called to be told they want me to come for a clinic appointment and the date for that was 8th March 2013! Eh? really I need to wait 4 months from failed IVF to be reviewed? I didn't really know what to say. The nurse was very apologetic and said all she could suggest was I call at the end of every week for a cancellation. I said ok and hung up then burst into tears. I felt awful and couldn't believe I would need to wait that long and when would treatment start then, April? May? or further away. Is this because it's NHS and not Private? I text my husband and tried to pull myself together but I just couldn't stop the tears. I had to work on the reception that afternoon too and I knew if I had one awkward patient I might loose it. Luckily it wasn't too bad and i held the tears in until I was in the car coming home.

All weekend I was in a bit of a state to say the least, we have talked about it and have decided that we want to go private for a cycle to see if I can get taken any sooner. We don't have any savings but my husband was left some money after his mother passed away earlier this year and we are going to use some of that, I think she would like the idea that she is helping us get our family.

So I called back today to enquire and I hope to hear back tomorrow - she took some details, gave me a rough price and said she would request my notes and get back to me - so here's hoping I can start again a hell of a lot sooner than March and will be doing ICSI.

I have waited 4 years for this I know 4 months doesn't seem a lot but to me it's forever.